A Lesson On Trust And Obedience

Over the years I've learned a very valuable lesson: anything I do in MY own strength WILL fail haha. But seriously, it always does.

When I first tried applying to college, I got accepted into what I thought was a sure thing. But, as the weeks grew closer to the start of the fall semester, things started falling apart. I applied for loans and they got denied. Then, they went through but didn't cover the cost. After spending a whole summer planning my new life on campus, two weeks before school started I had to withdraw. I had to watch as all my friends posted their pictures from move-in day and set up their dorm rooms; I was crushed. But, I still kept the faith that God would bring something better into my life - I had to.

So when I went through the next round of school applications for the spring, I knew I had to just trust God. I had so many people praying for me and they knew something was in store for me. So when I got accepted into Bing I knew that this was where He wanted me to be, and I am SOOOO glad that I said "YES" and trusted that He would provide for me. Yes, I still have loans I need to pay off, but I have been fulfilled in so many ways since being here. Ahhh I am so blessed.

That's why when I wasn't sure what I wanted to do this summer I had to remember how far I've come. I had to remember that God has always provided for me in ways that I don't see immediately. Even though I'm blind to His grace He still leads me onward into it.

So, as of today I am trusting in God and it is with great excitement that I am going to Lebanon this summer through English Language Institute/China (ELIC). This opportunity is something that I have had to REALLY trust God about these last few months. I first got accepted last semester and was incredibly overjoyed, yet once I returned back to campus this semester I was stuck again. Should I still go? Am I called here? How do I fund raise for this? Who will support me?

I had to take a long time to really pray about this and ask myself: Do you trust God?

If the answer was "Yes", then all would fall into place. So that's where I'm at right now. Saying "Yes" to this trip to Lebanon where I will have the chance to meet Syrian refugee children, REAL Syrian refugees!! These past few months have had a lot of discussions around them, but I will actually get the opportunity to MEET them. My heart is ready and nervous and filled with excitement.

If I could ask for anything I would be this: Would you pray for me? Would you pray for me to continually trust that God will provide? Would you pray for me to be bold in asking others to support me? I would really appreciate that and really need that.I would love to continue talking about how this all came about and why I feel like God has called me here. So PLEASE feel free to reach out and message me, call me, or email me!! I would truly love to hear from you!!

God Bless and Soli Deo Gloria!!