Dear God,

Hey Dad, It's been quite some time since we've talked last. I have to admit that's primarily my fault. I places way too much focus and attention on what's been going on in my life. These past few weeks definitely haven't been the easiest, but it was largely because I tried to handle it all by myself. I didn't cry out to You to be my sufficiency. I should've. I could've. But, I didn't. I'm sorry. I'm truly grateful that You have enough forgiveness to cover a lifetime of forgetfulness and arrogance. I am truly grateful that You continue to pursue me, call to me, run after me even though I continue to strive on my own path. I continue to run away and try to carve out my own way because it's something that I can hold onto, something that I can make myself, something known. But, You continue to challenge my ways and tell me, "Where are you going? What are you doing? Don't you know that My way is better? Come to Me; Follow Me; I love you." Those words are almost too beautiful to handle. Too wonderful to comprehend. I want to fall into them, I yearn for rest. This day, I want to start anew with a new heart. I want to fall back into the promises You surround me with. I don't want to run from You anymore. There is nothing to look forward to at the end of MY path, but there is E V E R Y T H I N G to look forward to at the end of YOURS. May my feet walk the path of uncertainty with a heart fully dedicated to trust You and trust the process You have for me. This upcoming weekend, I am going on another journey. I don't know what You'll do in my life or what You'll say to me, but I promise to trust the process. I promise to love the process. I promise to put my trust in You. As I end my year, I want to enter into a new one with a new purpose, a new focus, and a new heart. Take out every part of me that doesn't glorify You or expand Your kingdom. Remove every ounce of unforgiveness, bitterness, and selfishness. May I be so filled by Your love that I will be willing to lay down my life for my friends. May I be so filled by Your love that I am hidden behind Your cross and the identity that You have proclaimed joyfully over me. Thank You; for second chances, for Your faithfulness, and for the feeling of Your embrace. It's just as sweet as I remembered. I love You. ​Amen.